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Name: Joel
Birthday: 8/3/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Figuring out this ever wondrous, slightly confusing, constantly changing state known as life.
Expertise: I'm good at a lot of things, but I'm not good at filling out an "expertise" category...oh, not one bit.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  hobbstarrunner
Member Since:
2/3/2003
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| This may be the best post I have ever made.
And while we're at it:
Please Watch This
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| I'm awake at the thinking hours, so Xanga it is.
Tonight I had an overwhelming urge to hang out with my older sister Mandy. I don't really get to hang out with her that much (nor did I ever), but when we did hang out it was pretty fun (one time we saw Red Dragon in the theaters, and Mandy was jumping every other minute). Being the youngest child in the family, I feel like I get the easy job that requires no work. Yeah, Betsy and I are close, but I think that I need to finally make an effort to get to know Mandy better. I think that I should be capable of taking hold of the situation.
She also recently got engaged. That just caught up to me a couple minutes ago. Mandy is getting married. I love Tony (her fiance) but there's so much I don't know about him. But then again, there's just as much that I don't know about Mandy.
This is the beginning of a new generation in our family (aside from my cousin Jeremy getting married)
The point of this post: I need to go hang out with them. I shouldn't let family slip away like this.
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| My life tumbles forward without much effort for extended periods of time. These sometimes long spans are immediately followed by a brief rough period of reflection, usually a day or two days long. As I have just entered into one of these periods, I felt the need to write about it.
After I left the movie theater this afternoon, I was plunged into a disconnected melancholy. Chicago usually has this effect on me, as I am surrounded by so many people yet at the same time am not.
I'm not going to class tomorrow. I think I'm going to ride my bike somewhere and read the Bible, mainly because I never do that and I tell myself I will and don't follow through. I don't plan on this helping me out of some sort of dark time, but I want to help my spirituality a little bit. I wish I would convince myself to do this more often. I wish I didn't have to wait for the hard times to go to God.
After a weekend+ of going to concerts and Chicago, I think being around the certain crowds of people has driven me over the edge. I'm always making exceptions for myself, though. I'm not an asshole; everyone else, though?
I noticed last week that I get mad when I hear laughing in the distance.
I'm terrible at communicating how I feel. I wish I was capable of writing elaborate and fancy descriptions chock full of polysyllabic adjectives, but I can't do it, especially at the moment.
I want to make board games. I don't feel like writing papers anymore. It's mind numbing and stressful. I don't know what to major in. People say "Communications", and I don't understand what this entails. I am then told that it will get you so many different jobs. This does not help. It's too bad that I don't care about working.
I don't want it to seem like this is all just slanted by my current attitude. Most of these statements are true a majority of the time, but today overwhelmed me to the point of xanga rambling.
I will be happy again. I just wish that these problems would be addressed more often and not bottled up.
Also, I still feel like a jerk. I think it's because I get called an "asshole" at least once a day. Either I'm turning into a jerk or light hearted sarcasm is no longer a viable form of communication.
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| When did I become a jerk? I feel like a jerk sometimes. I don't think I was always like this? Thanks a lot, college.
This weekend was insane. Ask me about it, I don't feel like relaying all of the details at the moment.
Tomorrow I'm seeing this!
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| This week's forecast:
Wednesday - Betsy is visiting. I think we're going to watch a crapload of Wonder Shozen. Bout time.
Thursday - I'm going to see Beirut in the city at Portage theater. Woot.
Friday - Going on a trip to Minneapolis to see Girl Talk and Dan Deacon. I really don't listen to their music, however, Tay Zonday is opening the show and it's in Minneapolis. I don't need to say anything else.
Saturday - Driving immediately back (after breakfast at mall of america) to see Of Montreal at the Metro.
Bring it on.
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